everything is stressful!!

So many things to get done, my head is spinning. I rescheduled my doctors appt for a slightly more convenient time in the week. I tried to get her to talk to me on the telephone instead, which would work because it is just follow up chat, but she insists on seeing me. There go four hours of my work-week sucked into the void.

Been having a rough month with my new meds. I don’t have the really bad side effects, but my appetite is shot, making everything seem inedible and nauseating. At the same time, I rather unhelpfully have been craving sweets and carbs. Also, general malaise. Something is happening, and my body is determined to fight it to the death or something.

All of it makes me seriously question the desirability of getting pregnant, since according to reports it is pretty much just like this…but more inevitable pain at the end. I have never understood it when women say they really want to be pregnant. Lots of women say this, so I believe that it is their honest feeling. But what is the appeal ladies? Near as I can tell, it all just seems gross, awkward and painful.

Fortunately, I still have crossfit:

Warm up: 400m run. 2 rounds:

• 10 squat jumps with a 3sec static squat at the bottom
• 10 froggy squats, which are sort of like push presses without the bar 

Part A: 5x5 front squats I did 50kg. I am limited on flexibility in this movement. And it isn’t just the hips, I actually have a worse problem with the wrists. Coach showed me an “old school” way of holding the bar that is easier on the wrists. 

Part B: 5 rounds of 

• 15 wall balls
• 135 single jumprope
• 2 min rests

My time was about 17:37. I felt floored afterwords, but a smoothie substantially improved my state.